I went to a wedding in early April. It was six days before Good Friday, which was also the day I flew to Kenya. Seven days before Holy Saturday. Eight days before Easter. Nine months after my wedding was supposed to be. It was … [Read more...] about What can make me whole again?
Suffering
Waiting on God
The light from my half-decorated Christmas tree cast a rutilant glow over my living room. Ribbons and garlands and my golden tree skirt sat on my coffee table in wait, ready to play their part in celebrating Jesus’s birth. As for me, I was slumped … [Read more...] about Waiting on God
My Broken Engagement
Has God forgotten me? No, my heart said. But it wasn't a statement of faith. It was a cry of sorrow: I wish that he had. Because if he had forgotten me, it would mean that he didn’t know about my broken engagement, that he wasn't an indifferent … [Read more...] about My Broken Engagement
The Opposite of Fear: Resting in the Character of God
“I’m going to ring you up quickly so that you can leave before they lock the doors,” the cashier told me as sirens wailed outside. “We do that when there’s a tornado warning.” My thoughts began to circulate: What if someone I loved gets hurt? What … [Read more...] about The Opposite of Fear: Resting in the Character of God
Rejection: The Biblical Response
When I was a junior in college, my church announced a need for small group leaders. I thought I might be a good fit, so I volunteered. A few Sundays later, all of the new leaders and the people who wanted to join a small group gathered after … [Read more...] about Rejection: The Biblical Response
When God Seems Silent
I've prayed for something for a decade that hasn’t yet come to pass. There are months where the sting of waiting wanes. But there are those where it doesn’t, where the seeming interminability of the situation - and God's silence - threatens to … [Read more...] about When God Seems Silent